||[Feb. 10th, 2004|09:41 pm]
Is it bad when I'm dating some one who I'm not in love with and don't think I ever will be? Plus I'm a mental case at this point in time, so being in love is secondary to that. Whats worse is there is this boy from myspace that I'm talking to who seems to understand me really well...except he lives in Louisiana (Go Kristin for picking the boys who live in the middle of no where)...I really like this boy and well when I'm with the other one, I'm happy for the most part. I think I'm only with him though because I was tired of being alone and well, he seemed interested. I'm really good at that though. Aparently I'm really talented with making boys like me (chi you understand) but I think its only because I make them feel good...remind them that they are human, and that they are loved. I'm not even sure if it would matter if it was me telling them all that I do...if some one else did the same I think they would be just as enamoured as they seem with me. But maybe thats the point...I don't know really. Sorry for the ramble girls...just needed to get that out.